well here goes nothing

Well after a long wait I went in to get my pregnancy blood test done and found out in the middle of a school day at lunch that the iui procedure was unsuccessful. Nothing like feeling like bawling and you have another 3 hours of teaching. What this meant was to come off the progesterone I was on and allow for my cycle to begin again. Back to square one.

So here we are again living in the never ending two week wait. I feel like for the past three years I have lived in the two week wait. The time between ovulation and the pregnancy test where you pretty much do everything as if you are pregnant but don't know if you are. Because of this dreaded two week wait I feel like I can never sit in a hot tub, never drink, eat deli meats, etc. My life feels like it is on hold.

This second cycle things have gone a little different. I went in on day 3 and and then on day 10. Ususally at this point there is no progress and they say to come in again on day 16. This time though I already had a nice follicle waiting and according to the ultrasound tech a good lining. WOW! That was the first that things were actually on time. So I went in again on day 13 to find out I was ready to ovulate (AKA - give myself my injection).

Unforunately, timing has never been on my side when it comes to IUI. The first cycle landed on the first day of school so I needed to do it a day early and this time it landed on the day I had planned a field trip to explore caves. Can not really leave a supply teacher to do that. So I would unfortunately have to postpone by a day. Crossing my fingers it would not be to late.

I went in on a Wednesday for the IUI procedure with Matt's hand in mine. This time being knoweldgable with what was going to happen I took two advil before hand and what a difference it made! Instead of the killing contractions afterwards I felt nothing. The doctor said that everything went really well.

So here I sit during my two week wait - a day before my pregnancy test. I took a test this evening at home and it came out negative. I have to admit my hopes went down and am mentally preparing myself for another failure.

The past two days I have been battling something as I had a very fluttery stomach at 11 dpiui and then cramping in the pelvin area (different than af cramps) for the past 3 days.

There is not much more to do than wait and pray.

Thanks to all my prayer warriors our there praying for Matt and I as we continue our journey of infertility.